Monday, October 10, 2005
cheers, pros and cons
yes yes yes, i cannot agree more. life is full of such. i walked into a flyers-paved lift, and on them it says "keep our lifts clean! do not litter!" - what a disgusting sight.
a lot of thoughts came to me, it doubled in these couple of days. no matter where i am, something must attack me. i fight very hard to get them to leave, cos nothing about them is positive, but yet they refuse to go. i have a very poor memory, i forgot what majority of them were trying to drill into my head, but still it doesn't mean they never happened. i know sometime later, it wouldn't take long, they will resurface. till then, all those heartfelt thoughts will remain as a draft.
all my life i've been debating with myself (don't pretend you don't, be trustworthy and don't lie). with each and every little thing that took place, i always want to state the possibilities and impossibilities. i wanna know what will come after this something (decision/words/such), or what will follow if nothing changes. nonono don't get me wrong. there was absolutely nothing up my sick mind when i said this something. let's just say i'm damn kpo.
just a little something to kill time while i try to recall what hit me especially when i was in his car, in the shower etc.:
some friends become lovers. afterwhich they lose a special love called friendship. from there, they left friendship for a better love called relationship. maybe if it works well, it turns into kinship. sad to say, it doesn't apply to everybody. some friends, after becoming lovers, they lose something more than friendship: trust.
for a friend that you wanna take to a higher level with (as in relationship), must be a friend that you believe you can entrust your heart to (to hell with those "i know you for a day i feel like i can be with you forever" relationship). so what happens to the unfortunate lot (stress UNFORTUNATE LOT. don't read on if you feel fortunate then start to disagree with me then curse and swear at me) that became lovers from friends?
remember u used to kid him/her about that girl/boy? try again now, does it still feel as sweet? or is it as sour as jealousy?
how about those everyday event that happened and you guys get all excited sharing it? a friend will listen, a partner will pretend to.
you hit him, he taps you back. you scold him, he laughs at you. in comparison, a boyfriend would shut up and stay upset the whole day.
a friend will listen to your complains, a partner gets you complaining.
he/she used to cheer you up when you were feeling down, but probably too ashamed now that he/she is the source of your unhappiness.
[currently unable to state more. i know there are a lot more so updates pending. to contribute please email bibitee@gmail.com. quick, i wanna conclude!]
note: this post is not directing at anyone I MEAN IT. it's only answers that i want. to keep records. i have some weird habits.
ya la i know la i digress. i know i was talking about trust. i wanna add something totally irrelevant leh. why? cannot ar?
is it too late?
- 11:49:00 PM
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valued creeps
BUBU
bestie
since 1998
great laugher, horrible classmate,
female duet, weeding partner
________________________________________________________
JAMIE
honeh
since 2000
always on my side, club partner,
digresser, great companion
________________________________________________________
WEESIN
sister
since 1999
duet partner, confidant,
sibei onz, trustworthy
________________________________________________________
CLARA
meanie
since 2005
scream-2-gather
________________________________________________________
JEWEL
meanie
since 2005
similarities, like-minded
________________________________________________________
ALEXANDER
boyfriend
since 2000
ah blah blah blah
________________________________________________________
INCOMPLETE
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little man
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norbit
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300
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meet the robinsons
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ratatouille
hairspray
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mission: impossible III
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pirates of the caribbean: dead man's chest
snakes on a plane
miami vice
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eragon
ghost rider
tmnt
spiderman3
pirates of the caribbean: at world's end
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tranformers
the bourne ultimatum
rush hour 3
